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im going to hate this weekend...

Today, i fasted till dinner... i had too eat... there was pizza... fucking pizza, a 45 minute dinner with three pizza's and cake and cookies... i binged... horribly
i had a munch out tonight too (sit and eat unhealthily) i skipped it but they gave me a cinnamon bun i devoured it... i am soo weak

total: 899 calories... 1 below 900 (nasty)... which is horrible for coming off of a fast, it undid everything
I might purge later, (i really hate doing that though)... if people stay out of the bathrooms
supposedly i will still lose-- i think http://www.thedailyplate.com lies: Our estimate is that you may consume about 930 calories a day to lose two pounds per week.

the rest of this weekend wont be better... tomorrow i have a lax game, but i wont eat anything before it, i ll feel shitty,but i can burn some of the fat i put on from today
however afterwards i am baking a ton for my Bf's Birthday, on saturday... which mean tasting the cake batter and icing, and cookies... etc.... so gross, at least i wont be eating it, but icing add up like no other.
Saturday - well i get to take part in eating some of the food i baked.. great... baking, stupid idea, and i'm going out too lunch with his mother, meaning i have to eat like a normal human being.

Sunday, hopefully i can fast :)
monday required dinner (mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays, and sundays - but i can get out of sundays)

XOXO MK
hope your guys weekends go better... im in for another rough one next weekend, my mother is coming..

hey
so i fasted today, no interruptions yet..
2 cups of tea
32 oz of H2O with two packets of crystal light
resisted chocolate covered strawberries and freshly BBQ hamburgers...
total: 15 calories
lax practice burnt: 356 calories
im allowing myself to have two more packets of crystal light if im craving (total 25 calories) or maybe sprite 0

Should i continue this till required dinner tomorrow, or eat breakfast (<50 cals) and then no lunch?


Made up a new plan for myself... i have two difficult weekends ahead and its all very uncertain and vague.

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XOXO MK
GOOD LUCK GUYS... Discipline creates Performance

Hey
TOtal: 526 calories.
No sports today, practice was cancelled so im counting on basal!

so... not horrible but not good day, resisted cookies and chocolate cake, but i had to have a piece of the maple cake... its my favorite, and i only have cake when it or poppyseed cake comes at required dinner, thats my motivation to avoid others... just wait for those two.

Think ill tea, juice, and gum fast tomorrow. I have practice but no required dinner, and no game :)
wish me luck
Good luck to you guys too!
XOXO MK

Hey so back to restricting... had to eat dinner and lunch so i went over 500 calories... which sucks... 659 calories to be exact. Better than eating a ton though. Ill defiantly eat under 500 tomorrow. Burned 369 calories at lax, so burnt off some of the calories... but still not an excuse.

I posted these earlier but no one looked. Just wondering if she looks like Miranda Kerr:
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XOXO MK
stay strong girls

MOther gone!!! can start eating less than 1,000 calories a day again... start going less than 500!
im really going to need will power though, because 3 days of normal eating is harder to resist than a binge :(

xoxo MK

my plan is ruined on day 5... my mother came and is making me eat... everything....

i will continue restricting monday... forever, i am fat already

xoxo MK

grrrr...
today was a horrible day, by midday i was over 500 calories... i planned on fasting but i had to eat the required dinner, because people commented and it was so yummy... i had two pieces of bread and one slice of beef. After check in my prefect called us all in for a surprise much out, since senior exe's are over (too much time to explain)... where you eat a ton of junk-food. tagalongs, trail-mix, tortilla chips, cereal, candy...

my total was over 1,00 i wont dare to even say... it sucked, i felt soo sick, i thought i was going to throw up (not try to) just do it, i didnt though.
i couldnt go out of the dorm to run or burn calories but i did 800 jumping jacks, 300 - run/high knees/ butt kicks in place - 400 - run in place - 200 - jump around.
I had such a horrid headache i had to go lay in bed and turn off all the lights... but i couldnt fall asleep.
i also felt horrible at lacrosse after the 500 calories... my stomach hurt horribly.

Does anyone know if my reaction to food, or more junk-food could have anything to due with my thyroid?
I always feel sick after much outs... is it just mental?

i couldn't bear to post this last night since i had been doing well. im going to try and look at this like a metabolism boost but its morning and my stomach still hurts. i will fast on tea with splenda for the day, even if my mom try's to take me out to dinner (she's here this weekend), i need to be cleansed and have no sports today.

I burned 555 calories between lacrosse and jumping around, i continued jumping/running in place after the jumping jacks, supposedly burning 171 calories.


XOXO MK
I can do better... i willl

Here are the pictures from yesterday morning: i wont post any today... ill look fatter
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Hey, my little update

So today was a little worse than yesterday. I made the sandwich which i planned on making on friday [1 wheat bread slice (76), 1 slice turkey (48 cals), 7 tomatoes (17cals), 4 slices of egg whites(12 cals), balsamic vinegar (42)] total 195 cals which is a little more in a sandwich than i would like, and its wasnt even that good!!
Breakfast i had tea and around 4 tablespoons of mango, which i estimated to be 5 tablespoons just in case. (35 Cal)
For dinner, i had some Jicama, cauliflower, a Crystal light 5 calorie pack and... stupidly an oreo (not double stuff) and a bite of spice cake (no icing). Like everything i overestimated the amount of food by a little so i dont count less calories so..

My total Calories: 351
Calories burned: 409 (lax game.. etc)

Yay! still a decent day.. i resisted brownies, ice cream, and more cake. I figured out that if i keep track of what i resisted (the unhealthy foods), its very motivating, and shows me that i do have the self control to do decently... not great but ok.
Going to sleep early so i dont eat.

Hope your days went well too!
XOXO MK
Discipline creates performance.

So i had a bunch of various foods today in very small portions.. so i am not going to list them but i stayed under 300! 298 to be exact which is less than i had planned for today. I also burned 342 calories, so, i burned more through exercise than i ate.
I am going to change tomorrow from a juice day to a normal day, but a bigger lunch and hopefully no dinner, since i have a game. I may eat a salad... so i dont binge. I will defiantly stay under 500 calories and i will be burning even more since i have a lacrosse game

XOXO MK
Discipline creates performance

Hey

So made it today (dont jinx myself im staying up til twelve). I just had my juice, 2 cups of herbal tea, water, and gum (3 pieces). Unfortunately we had a pizza dinner which i showed up late to so they were out of pizza and i didnt have to eat it, but my friend insisted that i take a bite of hers. I felt so gross, if i had weakened by drinking a little more juice, or a sip of milk it would have been better, because it would have only been liquid for today. I took a very small bite and no cheese, so just thin crust and tomato sauce, which is about 9 cals
Overall: 450 Cals
Burnt 203 Calories at Lacrosse, i had to leave a little early so i only played 1/2 hour.

XOXO MK
Hope i do the same tomorrow!
discipline creates performance!

if i stick to the Diet i will be eating:

Monday 454-540 Cal (Juice Day, may have to eat dinner)
Tuesday 470 Cal (Veggies to keep up Metabolism, Must eat Dinner)
Wednesday 456 - 537 (Juice Day, May need Veggies for Sports, May have to eat dinner)
Thursday 470 Cal (Veggies to keep up Metabolism, Must eat Dinner)
Friday 240 -346 Cal (Must eat Lunch, May have to eat dinner)
Saturday 312 - 680 Cal (Smoothie, May have to eat Lunch/Breakfast and/or Dinner)
Sunday 9-274 Cal (Tea/Water Day, may have Juice or SMoothie to Prevent Binge)

I really cant allow myself to binge, i have sports everyday except maybe today and sunday... does any have an estimate of how much weight i will lose, it would be very motivating.

Hey!!

so im trying to set a plan for myself... i made an excel sheet. I'm hopping it works, and keeps me from binging, but i havent tried making such a detailed plan before :).

the smoothie which i marked is made of: 1 cup of lemonade /cranberry juice. 1/2 bannana. 1 cup pinaple. .25 cup Black berry. .25 cup blueberry. (274 Calories) , i havent made it before but it sounds yummy, and if its not, well then thats just another reason to not actually eat it!!!
the " boyfriend dinner" is either Tri Tip --> only eat 1/2 -3/4 (binge food!!!) or pizza 1 piece a BBQ chicken and 1-2 cheese sticks…. Soo gross (Binge food). Unfortunately if he orders it i have to eat it otherwise he makes comments and i think he is starting to become suspicious.

Heres a picture of the plan on excel (hopefully you can see it), sorry if its a little confusing.
its a little vague because im at bording school so some of it depends on what they serve a required dinners.



anyways ill be posting how much i actually managed to eat as well... hopefully no binges or much outs (required food eating--> its suppost to be fun? like a treat of ice-cream with a prefect group... to complicated to explain.)

XOXO MK
discipline creates performance

hey

soo i binged horribly today.... really bad, played two hours of lacrosse though that doesnt even begin to make up for it.
but i did purge for the first time, so im proud of myself, although i dont plan on making a habit out of it, only when i binge.

Also i found a new drink. Its a green tea energy drink with no calories !!! its called sencha shot, so im excited to try it out :)

XOXO MK
discipline creates preformance

Going to fast for the day :)
ill have to break it tomorrow at dinner :/, we are required to go to formal dinner tomorrow, which means 45 minutes of "eating" veggies, very few veggies, and lots and lots of water.

My boyfriend loves ordering tri tip or pizza for me on the weekends, which is one of my trigger foods, not so much that i will eat everything in sight, but i will finish off 1/2 to a whole sandwich (gross!) or 2 pieces of pizza (gross, that doesnt even have protein, just all carbs)
although i'm starting to get that under control, typically down to 1/2 sandwich and 1 piece of pizza.

I'm running out of excuses to not eat in front of people at dinner, at lunch its easy, but we have formal 4 days a week.
any suggestions?

Thanks
xoxox MK
Boys like Bones

Hey,
so unfortuanlty i dont know my current weight because i have no access to a scale (i go to boarding school). I have been measuring myself by the cm's.
HW 117 (highest i've ever been weighed)
LW 102 (and that was when i was healthy, at the very beginning of freshmen year, now i'm a sophomore!)
GW 99
5'3"
I want to at least be under 100, hopefully a little less than that.

XOXO MK
Boys like Bones

hey

so I'm new to the posting and such, figured i should say hi
anyways, just wondering if anyone has any suggestions

Im a boarding school which makes everything annoying because we have formal dinner 4 nights a week and i cant say i already ate mac and cheese everyday. its easy to get away with eating very little, but if i eat too little people comment, so it is more than i would like to eat.

the other problem with it is that i dont have a scale, ive been measuring my body with tape-measures to see how many cm i lose, anyone have any other suggestions for keeping track?

the third problem is lunch, i have a boyfriend and we typically eat lunch together 2-3 times a week, otherwise i dont eat anything. i love "eating" with him, but i haven't mastered how to make it look like i ate without eating, i can eat very little but still more than i would like. I have thought about purging but i dont have my own bathroom making me too paranoid. recently i havent been eating with him to do homework, but i would rather get away without eating.
Any suggestions???

grr i had a bad day in the eating department today.

thanks!!
xoxox
boys like bones

hey

so I'm new to the posting and such, figured i should say hi
anyways, just wondering if anyone has any suggestions

Im a boarding school which makes everything annoying because we have formal dinner 4 nights a week and i cant say i already ate mac and cheese everyday. its easy to get away with eating very little, but if i eat too little people comment, so it is more than i would like to eat.

the other problem with it is that i dont have a scale, ive been measuring my body with tape-measures to see how many cm i lose, anyone have any other suggestions for keeping track?

the third problem is lunch, i have a boyfriend and we typically eat lunch together 2-3 times a week, otherwise i dont eat anything. i love "eating" with him, but i haven't mastered how to make it look like i ate without eating, i can eat very little but still more than i would like. I have thought about purging but i dont have my own bathroom making me too paranoid. recently i havent been eating with him to do homework, but i would rather get away without eating.
Any suggestions???

grr i had a bad day in the eating department today.

thanks!!
xoxox
boys like bones